Sink or Swim
Fail or succeed entirely by one's efforts.
This in and of itself is a deep topic for me.
For two years now, I have felt like I was both sinking and swimming in my thoughts and grief.
Back-to-back losses are hard, and I was going through the motions with dealing with them.
Sink or swim was a means of survival for me before I decided to go back to therapy to help myself from myself and my sink or swim existence.
I've used sink or swim as a means to an end for both relationships and friendships, as it allows me to keep people at bay.
This, in my mind, would protect me from those I felt were only around me for what I could do for them, not because they generally saw me or even had feelings for me.
I felt sink or swim was a shield to protect me, but what I'm learning it's a crutch that is still holding me back, so to speak.
Funny how God will place a person or people in your life to let you know you can let go of that crutch and hold on to the person who he has sent to you to help you let the sink or swim mentality go for good.
To be free to love unapologetic.
