Jan. 15, 2022
Change
Over the last two years I have come to understand change.
I can't say that I was willing to accept it, but I saw it coming.
you see God has a way of getting our attention when we're being too hardheaded or selfish to admit it.
I was seeing all the signs God was showing me but was too selfish to see why he was showing it to me.
Then out of nowhere it happened everything I was being shown had started to come to pass. and once again I was afraid of it because I was so used to being in my own mess and self-pity that I wasn't ready for the change. what do you mean Carolyn?
Well God had other plans in that as well my friend was in a coma for maybe a week after his stroke, than he had to go to rehabilitation I went to see him a few times then the pandemic hit, and I couldn't go but I would call and check on him.
What I mean is this you pray for change or a sign but when you receive it, you're not ready for it. I prayed to be let out of a relationship I was not happy in, and when the father answered the prayer (not in the way I wanted!) I decided that I would stay in it because the person I was with had a stroke.
He took a turn for a minute than his family decided to cut me off all contact.
I was so hurt I sat and cried for weeks, then I heard God say to me one night it's time for change.
Me being who I am I ignored it than as weeks, then months went on my friend got worst and was put in hospice, once again I cried and asked why? God replied it's time for change.
Before my friend had his stroke, we had a conversation about him seeing his self-die.
So, when my friend passed in September of 2021, I finally understood what God was trying to do. He was preparing me for change in letting go and moving forward in my life.
I didn't think anything of it at first until the conversation got deep and we both cried.
And two weeks later He had the stroke and my life changed from there.
funny how we are giving the gift to see things before the happen and we still ignore the signs because we don't like or want to accept change.
I truly am blessed with finally accepting the change that God has made in my life.
Change can be the very thing that makes us stronger than what we have been through.
I am living proof but remember we are meant to change even when we don't too.
never again will I be happy in just being comfortable in my own mess when a positive change is waiting to bless me!