Feb. 2, 2022
suicide
This has been on my mind since the death of two well-known celebrities this pass month.
I have dealt with suicidal thoughts since the age of sixteen at the time I was hurt and heartbroken over a boy, but I felt most of my life lost and alone.
I tried to jump from a third-floor window and a friend stopped me. instead of my mother and stepfather trying to get me help the put me on punishment.
I just knew in my head the world would be better off without me.
Second time I had the thought I was thirty-six and had just had surgery and my ex-boyfriend left me alone, I had a bottle of pain meds and once again my thought was the world was better off without me in it. trust me the thoughts never go away but I have learned that I am loved, and I have a therapist now so if I feel lost, I can always call her.
Mental health is real, and this pandemic has shown me that I have a testimony to share. I wake up most days and ask why Lord am I here, I am here because my aunt needs me, my sisters, friends need me. I have stories to tell plays to write.
Most people feel that they can't talk to anyone but there is help. I know what it's like to feel like the whole world is against you but there is light at the end of the tunnel.
just because your friends are strong doesn't mean that there is something that they may be going through. please check on your friends and family ask them if they need to talk don't judge just listen. sometimes that's all we need is for someone to listen. live, laugh, love!!!